do you ever?

Think of me? As in, kahit sandali?

Do you miss me? When you're at work, tapos pag nagte-text tayo. And kinukulit kita, I'm making you smile kahit sangkaterba trabaho mo? Or do you even miss waking me up in the morning sa mga texts mo? How about our simpleng tampuhan? Or yung pagre-relieve mo at work and then pinupuntahan kita, nag-stay ako til malapit ka na umuwi. Tapos, nasa roof top lang ako, waiting for you. Don lang tayo, naglalambingan ang nagkukwentuhan and nagyo-yosi while break mo.

Or pag sunday, when you visit your kid, diba pinupuntahan mo rin ako after seeing Alexa?

Do you still get sad pag oras na para umuwi ka, and pupunta ka sa locker to leave your phone? Eh yung pagsakay ko sa bike mo, tapos hina-hug kita ng mahigpit, and I keep whispering I love you in your ear? Do you miss them?

I miss them, Beb. I miss them so much. And it hurts so bad. I want to delete all your messages on my cellphone para wala na ako naiisip, even our pictures. I even thought of deleting you on my friendster. I want to send you a message to change/edit your name na para di kita mahanap. I hate that I can still check your account and see your picture with her.

Tapos lagi ko tinatanong sa sarili ko, baket hindi ako ang una mo nakilala. Baket hindi na lang ako? I want to be the one to comfort you, hug you, kiss you and welcome you when you get home from work. I want to be the one you first person you see when you open your eyes, may it be in the middle of the night pag naalipungatan ka or when you wake up in the morning. And I want to be the last person na makikita mo before mo ipikit mga mata mo. Gusto ko, ako ang naghahanda at nagluluto ng pagkain mo. I want to make you happy. I want to be the mother of your children. And I want to love you more.

I miss you so much. And I'm so longing for your love, and your hug. I miss you saying "I love you Beb!" or yung pag nangungulet kang "Hay naku, I miss you". They really make me smile. Yung mga titig mo na nakakatunaw, I miss it too. Kahit nga yung mga arguments natin, nami-miss ko.

And I want to know if, nami-miss mo rin ba ako? Kahit, konti lang?