B's

This is the longest hindi ko nakausap si Brandon. But he did like my post on Facebook about 6 days ago.

But yun last message ko sa kanya on Saturday na ni-heart nya last message ko sa kanya sa Messenger. Weird lang. Usually kahit papano mag-heart and reply yon. Pero now, after nung nag message kame on Friday na hihintayin pa nya ako. Biglang nanahimik.

Kala ko busy sya eh. This morning nakatanggap ako notification on Facebook he posted 2 photos. Night cruisin daw. He's on his bike. May time naman pala sya. Kala ko kase pagtapos ng work, borlogs na. Kase wala na sya oras makipag usap saken.

Anyway, last week naman din I decided na hindi ko na muna sya guguluhin.

Mag-concentrate muna ako with Bryan. Last week nung medyo nagtampo ako sa kanya di ko alam naluha ako. Baka gusto ko na rin sya, di ko lang napapansin dahil kay Brandon.

So now, ok kame lalo ni Bryan. And last week na nya sa camp this week. Yey! Mukhang mas makakausap ko na sya ng mas maayos, hindi na umaga at gabi lang.

Galit si Aunt Irma

 About two years ago, well technically 3 years ago, first time ko ma-delay sa period ko. I thought Constancio got me pregnant, yey sana. But after 2 months, Aunt Irma came few days before I went to Boracay for my vacation to see Em sana.

Anyway, I was bleeding for a month kaya I went to see a doctor na, nag start na kase ako mahilo. Akala ko dahil sa hypertension ko, yun pala nagiging anemic nako.

OB gave me a prescription to stop and normalize the bleeding. Kumapal daw pala yun lining ko. Blah blah blah In fairness, nag normalize nga, and kung before dependent lang ako sa week ng arrival ni Irma, ito 26 days.

Fast forward to today, it happened again. I didnt have my period from May to June. Then, dumating si Irma ng July. And OHEMGEE I was bleeding for 6 weeks and 2 days.

I went to the OB nung 5th week pa lang. Baket ko raw pinatagal, dapat daw pag lumagpas na ng 5 days ang period magpa check up na. Sabi ko akala ko extended lang eh, hahahaha so ang sabi nya uminom ako ng gamot for 3 days to stop the bleeding and bumalik daw ako sa kanya for transV. Bleeding didnt stop, tuloy ang transv, and she said makapal lining ko, na naman. Gusto nya ako raspahin, at in case maulit daw ito, well kailangan na alisin matres ko. Waaaah eto na naman kame sa alisan ng matres.

Pero ewan ko, I decided to visit my old OB, yun nag opera saken. She said, mag-primolut ulet daw ako to stop the bleeding at hoping numipis lining ko.

So like 2years ago, I took it for 10 days and 2 days later may withdraw bleeding ako. Confusing tho, di ko sure kung withdrawal bleeding nga lang ba coz ang saket ng puson ko. Pero 2yrs ago when this happened I end up in the ER. SOBRANG saket ng puson ko. Hahaha

But this time on my second day, wow sa nilalabas ko.

Kadiri post ko no? Gusto ko lang ng may journal ako about it. Kung matatandaan ko lang lahat, isusulat ko rin yun two years ago para may record ako eh.

Well its my 3rd day of bleeding today. On thurs to sat, I need to get an appointment for transv again. To see if may nabago sa lining ko. Coz Dra. Santos said, if nothing changes, then we really need Dilation and Curettage. Wag sana umabot don. Hehehe pero at least, kesa sa tanggalan ako ng matres right?

That's what I like about Dra. Santos eh, di option sa kanya ang mag alis ng uterus. I'm thankful pa rin for her kase she considers saving it first.

Update soon.

UPDATE 1.1
So I went to Makati Med for my transV ultrasound on Friday (09042020), OB says 7 small myomas. LOL nadagdagan ng isa, yan yun di ata makita last time sa ultrasound ko.

Well, I still need an appointment with Dra. Santos para basahin yun result.

Stalker

Natatakot na ako sa pagiging stalker ko, minsan napapabilib na rin ako eh.

I dont need too much stalking kay Brandon eh, kase sya nagbigay saken nung una pa lang ng Facebook nya, IG. He even sent me results ng Covid test nya and ng Licensure exam nya sa health insurance company. Hindi man lang tinakpan ang details nya.

Anyway, syempre ni-stalk ko na sya nung una pa lang, bago ko pa i-activate yun Cher fb account ko.

Alam ko na address nya, birthday nya, kung san nakatira parents nya. Yun mga sinusulat nyang scripts. Isa na lang ang hindi, phone number nya. Weird nga eh, yan na lang ang hindi nya binibigay saken.

Kanina, naisipan ko sya i-google hahaha

Nakita ko naman sya. Andon yun old address nya, new address pati pamilya nya, address nila. Nakakaloka.

So eto na, may nakita akong phone number. Hindi ako 100% sure kung kanya, pero lumabas sa Whatsapp. May picture, naka smile pero yun sarado ang lips, and naka-shades. Duda ako. Kung naka smile sana sya na labas yun ipin nya, makikilala ko sya. But anyways, ni-save ko yun number ng walang name.

Ewan ko naman, naisip ko lang ulet i-check facebook photos nya. Wag ka, may similar photo naka tag sa kanya yun photo na nasa Whatsapp. LOL so possible na nga na it's him. Last online nya was kanina before lunch. Hihihi

Tinignan ko na rin, pwede sa iMessage, so lalo may chance it's him coz may duda akong naka iPhone sya, kase naka Mac sya eh. HAHAHA

I cant wait to meet him in person. Nabanggit ko na sa kanya na cancelled na ulet ang flights. I hope maghintay pa sya. Last week 4 days ata kame di nag-chat, kahit yun smiley  (🥰)  namin, wala. Tahimik kame as in. Then finally, nag-message nung weekend. Eh di happy nako. Nag-chat kame for a while on sunday and monday. 😊

Paano na nga ba ulet ang mag-blog?

Hindi naman ako good blogger, ginawa ko lang talaga diary ang pagba-blog. Dati naman kase hindi uso yun pagalingan gumawa ng post. Noon para saken, basta may journal ako, at since tamad ako mag-sulat na sa totoong diary, at na-discover ko ang mundo ng online journal, baket di ko subukan. 

Nagsimula ako 2003 or 2004. As in daily blah lang sya, and mga kilig moments ko with the ex, or mga sama ng loob ko.

Or yun mga boys ko lang after ng last relationship ko. Haha

Hanggang nagkaron na ako ng mga kaibigan. Mga bloggers ang una ko mga naging online friends, at kaibigan hanggang ngayon. At di na lang kame sa blog nag uusap usap, umabot na kame sa lumalabas na kame, at nago-out of town. Na-witness magka lovelife ang iba, maimbitahan sa kasal at maging ninang ng mga anak. Ang galing diba?! Sino mag-aakala na ang mga taong hindi mo nakikita noon, at nababasa mo istorya ng buhay nila at magiging totoo mong mga kaibigan?

Nakaka-miss ang buhay blogger noon. Hindi katulad ngayon, ang pagba-blog ay isa nang negosyo. Pagaraan ng post, ng mga travels, mga kung anong anik anik. 

At higit sa lahat, nami-miss ko yun unang blog ko na dinilete na ng blogger. Ang beybikulet.blogspot.com, ang dami ko memories sa blog na yan.

Oh well.

Brandon Update

So, ina-inarte ako diba.

I received a message from Brandon last friday. may bago sya work and he just started.

Well, sort of. Training pa sya for two weeks daw. He's training for certification maging agent for healthcare. Akala ko nga nung una nag-start na sya sa new job nya sa Finance. He said na meron pa rin yon mas better lang din daw na may isa pa sya trabaho.

Anyway, medyo cold ako kase syempre may tampo ako ng slight kahit wala naman ako karapatan diba. Ni-congratulate ko sya.

Then
ME: Take Care.
BRANDON: Huh?! Are you goodbying to me? 😆
ME: Haha no silly
BRANDON: 🤔
Ok :)

So sabi ko lang hindi and gusto ko pa rin sya makita. Pero yun nga, may hidden tampo yan. Pero kinilig ako don sa goodbying thing. Meaning, sensitive din sya. Dahil ang totoong meaning nung sinabi ko sa kanya na Take care was goodbye (sort of).

Sinabi ko na alng na gusto ko lang mag-ingat sya. Then nag bye naman sya kase mag work pa sya and di na sya pwede magpuyat.

ME: Your work gonna make me miss you
BRANDON: It better

I'm happy! Hahaha

On saturday, I sent him a GIF na sana ok naman ang araw sya. He responded after few hours (oh take note, he wasnt online for 14 hours, and he deactivated his OKC account, or nasabi ko na ba sa previous post yon?)

He responded So tired. Nag send na lang ako ulet ng massage GIF. And after an hour nag-send sya ng pictures ng ginagawa nya. Di ko alam anong chapters yon hahaha naka 2 chapters na raw sya and dapat daw 3 chapters per day. Kaso naman Monday-Friday 5am-7pm sya and on Saturday and Sunday 9am to 5pm. Sabi nga nya bumawi daw yum panahon na wala sya ginagawa, and before he said that, nasa isip ko yon at di ko lang alam pano ko sabihin coz tinatamad nako mag-isip pano sya i-translate 😄

Tapos bigla nya sinabi I just wanted to text you. Ay lintianan, kinilig nako lalo hahaha

We havent really chatted but I try to at least send him a nice GIF since sunday and today.

I'm just really kilig, and hopefully di masayang to.

The B's in my life in the time of COVID-19

So I met these two guys on OKC last June.

One is Bryan, a professional chef in Alaska. He's originally from Montana and moved to San Diego for college. Loved San Diego so he decided to live there. He has a 9 year old dog named Riley. Never been married, no kids, and ka-age ko.

I recently found out he's adopted since he was a baby. We do chat morning and evening. Usually pag gising nya, while he's in the kitchen and before matulog. He works at a mining camp in Alaska, cooks for about 20 something people, 7 days a week for breakfast and dinner. Mga 3-4 months a year, he's doing that for 11 years now. And the rest of the year, bakasyon sya. Sarap no?!

He's 5'3" and kinda bald, sabi ko nga kahawig nya si Bruce Willis. Really sweet.

Second is Brandon. I met him few days after Bryan. 37, Capricorn, divorced, no kids, has a dog named Frodo.

He works at Aria Casino & Resort in Vegas. He has a gorgeous sister and pretty ex wife. 5'10, bald, gorgeous smile.

First week na ka-chat ko sya, pansin ko kung gano sya ka-interested saken. He already knows my time, weather and even COVID-19 cases. Tapos just last Sunday, nalaman ko kilala nya si Duterte and I think he likes him.

We dont chat like Bryan. Pero both of these guys, already gave me their real names and wanted me to check them out on Facebook para daw malaman ko totoo sila. That time my Facebook was deactivated. So, sa Instagram na lang.

Bryan and I chat on WhatsApp since mga second day ata ng pagkakilala namin. While Brandon, took us almost 1 week chatting on OKC before we moved to Instagram.

Most ng chat namin ni Brandon eh kapag afternoon ko. We do send good morning/good afternoon pero dont chat much. He always likes my posts on IG and reacts on Instagram Stories. (he does that too nung naging FB friends na kame). And since you can heart messages on IG, he does that too. I'm always kilig sa kanya than with Bryan.

They both always say naman "I cant wait to meet you", pero yun nga I like Brandon more. Maybe because he's tall. And Bryan kinda look old.

I decided to activate my Facebook again kase gusto ko na maging friend si Brandon, at para ma-stalk ko na sya. So ni-friend ko sila ng sabay.

Si Brandon, mahilig mag-post kahit papano. Si Bryan, not so much. Brandon has still photos of his ex. And mostly travels. He's been traveling for a decade na rin. Nakakatuwa kase minsan sinasama nya yun sister nya. He likes to write. He does workout, and walks Frodo almost everyday. Parati din ako nakakatanggap ng pictures ni Frodo. He told me he only dated 4 girls exclusively. He was married for 4 years, got divorced 2 years ago. That's when he had Frodo. On and off daw relationship nila, and he wasn't happy anymore kaya he ended it. Si Bryan, hindi ko pa alam story ng divorce nya.

Mas malalim na rin mga naging topics namin ni Brandon. Si Bryan kase nakaka chat lang most of the time kapag naisisingi nya while he's in the kitchen. Pero in fairness ha, walang mintis yan. Sakto 1 month na kame today na nag uusap, never kame na-skip ng chat, mapa umaga man or gabi. So twice a day everyday. Si Brandon, well, minsan kase lumalabas sya or magsusulat sya. So pag may chance lang, don lang kame nag-uusap. But he's sweet. Di ko nga alam baket mas like ko sya.

Pero since nitong dumaang weekend, I feel like he's not into me like the previous weeks. Hindi na sya nagla-like ng posts ko, IG man or FB. May times, hindi na nya natitignan din yun stories ko. Tsaka parang tamad na sya makipag usap. We didnt even chat the whole day yesterday. Pero the other day, sabi naman nya "I cant wait to hold you".

Oh last week while I was in Makati, pinag uusapan namin na baka mapalapit na punta ko ng Vegas, sabi ko sana wala pa sya dine-date. Sabi nya "No, I'm quarantined." "I want you" potah kinilig ako. As in naglalakad ako ng naka smile, buti naka face mask ako. Pero yumuyuko ako kase halata pa rin.

Well, that was the last time na sobrang kinilig ako sa kanya. Though, ok pa nga rin naman sya. Until nung weekend. Feeling ko may na-meet na bago yon. He's still always online on OKC, he even changed his profile photo and added new photos.

Hindi naman kame exclusive no, I know may nakikilala pa yon don. Pero yun nga lang, ngayon lang sya parang tinamad na saken.

Si Bryan, walang pagbabago. Sayang, sana like na like ko rin sya.

So, ayun lang. I wanted to remember them lang kaya eto, bina-blog ko sila. Hahaha